this is how i’m doing: in case you were wondering…

There comes a point in every young designer’s life when they finally get off their butt and put together their OWN site — That day is today (or like two days ago really) my friends.  www.pauljamesdd.com.  Tell your friends!  Preferably the ones with money

Randy Pausch died today of complications from pancreatic cancer.  He was 47.  If you’re not familiar with him, check out these links and be inspired

http://www.cmu.edu/homepage/beyond/2008/summer/an-enduring-legacy.shtml

http://www.cs.virginia.edu/~robins/Randy/

No, not New Edition which is what first came to my mind when I typed out the title of this post. New links!

I needed another “Justin” on my blogroll, so the great JB did me a favor and started blogging. Despite his feminine stature, Justin certainly has a way with words. Check him out here.

If you’re looking for some motivation to start or continue running, check out any of the thousands of running blogs. Real people with real goals talking about their real training experiences, victories and setbacks. I added this Boston bound runner a while ago, but she’s still new to the blogroll. Check out Caitlin’s blog here.

I think that’s it for now!

I think there are really only two motivators in life, love and fear.  Every action I do and every thought I have is motivated by either love or fear.  I’ve observed that my natural or “default” motivator is fear.  Fear of what others will think, fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of the unknown will direct every aspect of my life unless…

I change my motivation.  Simple concept; swap out ‘A’ for ‘B’, and this has been something that has been a bit of a frustration to be honest.  How do I do something out of love instead of fear?  I can’t just decide to love someone.  I can do kind and loving acts for someone — but to really love them?

I have it all wrong.  My motivation should be love, yes — but not my love for others.  My love for others changes at a whim and is not even something I control.  My motivation is derived from the love I receive from God — His never changing, steadfast, perfect love.

“There is no fear in love.  But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.  We love because He first loved us.”  - 1 John 4:18-19

I am only capable of love because He first loved me.  Step 1 — Receiving God’s love.  I mean REALLY receiving God’s love.  How will I know that I’ve done step 1?  When I do things not because I fear what others think nor because I love them, but because God loves me — I mean really REALLY loves me!

He loves me so much, He gave me a desire to be healthy and fit and a body that is capable of more than I can wrap my head around.

He gave me taste-buds that make eating ENJOYABLE.  Let me tell you, I really enjoy eating.

He gave me a mind that is capable of soaking up knowledge — one that is creative and capable of solving problems.

Most importantly, He paid my debt by dying on a cross so that I could spend eternity with Him forever.

“Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.” — John 15:13

So today was a long run day with John.  We did not intend to run to Lake Ray Roberts.  We didn’t intend to run on the equestrian trail.  We also didn’t plan on spending 2 hours on this little adventure nor was it our idea to scare off a baby wild boar.  I wasn’t planning on spending the rest of the weekend recovering either.

We had a blast, but now I’m exhausted.  I’m really starting to dig the Greenbelt Corridor and it’s miles and miles of trails — it’s a welcome break from the asphalt and concrete that I usually see.  And getting to take a break sitting on the rocks at the south end of the lake was the icing on the cake.

At Starbucks working on some websites, sipping on some green tea.  It’s kind of like my second office — better than my actual office.  I should bring a name plate to put on my table.  Maybe bring a small plant and some other office nick-nacks.  Back to work — no blogging on “company time”

On a side note — this is how much of a geek I am.  I slept with my HR monitor on to see what my HR was while I slept — avg was 58!  I feel healthy