this is how i’m doing: in case you were wondering…

Today is the kick-off for the youth service “Practice” at GBC.  I’m helping out by playing bass for Ryan, our new worship pastor and to be completely honest I have been slightly dreading this evening.  I don’t have a great history with the youth at GBC, I led worship for them for the better part of the spring semester and it was rough; blank stares and crossed arms doesn’t convince me that they were there to worship.  It’s like looking through your DVD collection trying to find a movie to watch but only being reminded of the parts that you can’t stand of each movie which makes you not want to watch any of them. That’s how I was feeling.

Today at lunch I finally took a moment to sit down and pray about it.  I was starting to feel sick from the emotional roller coaster I was on, going from apathetic to angry back to apathetic.  These aren’t the emotions that worship should bring out.  So anyway, I prayed.  Why is prayer always my last resort?

I’m still not “excited” about the whole thing but my focus has shifted from dwelling on the negative to praying for these kids and tonight.  None of us can know God or grow spiritually unless God enables us to so I went to the source.  I’m not excited but I am relieved and anxious to see what God  has planned.

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