this is how i’m doing: in case you were wondering…

free derek webb music september first at:
www.freederekwebb.com

fotos from the derek webb concert at:
photos.essahfae.com

Today is the kick-off for the youth service “Practice” at GBC.  I’m helping out by playing bass for Ryan, our new worship pastor and to be completely honest I have been slightly dreading this evening.  I don’t have a great history with the youth at GBC, I led worship for them for the better part of the spring semester and it was rough; blank stares and crossed arms doesn’t convince me that they were there to worship.  It’s like looking through your DVD collection trying to find a movie to watch but only being reminded of the parts that you can’t stand of each movie which makes you not want to watch any of them. That’s how I was feeling.

Today at lunch I finally took a moment to sit down and pray about it.  I was starting to feel sick from the emotional roller coaster I was on, going from apathetic to angry back to apathetic.  These aren’t the emotions that worship should bring out.  So anyway, I prayed.  Why is prayer always my last resort?

I’m still not “excited” about the whole thing but my focus has shifted from dwelling on the negative to praying for these kids and tonight.  None of us can know God or grow spiritually unless God enables us to so I went to the source.  I’m not excited but I am relieved and anxious to see what God  has planned.

I don’t usually drink redbull, except when approached by attractive girls passing out free redbull.  Don’t judge me.

This is a monkey riding a guide dog, but who hasn’t seen that before?

I don’t even know who I hate.  The freakin’ web hosting for the Zeta Web site didn’t save my changes.  What do you mean it didn’t save the changes?  The nature of FTP uploads doesn’t require any saving of changes, it’s suppose to be automatic.  Either I’m crazy and I didn’t really spend 3 hours last night making changes or something is wrong with their host.  THAT is why I pay extra for better hosting.  Anyway, just had to vent.  I’ll go home at lunch and repost all of it again (always have a backup).  Blah.  You suck unkown web host.  When I find out who they are I’ll let you know.